Not what you hoped for, just what your heart did

Can't look at you the same way, anticipatin' heartbreak
And I know, and I know, and I know
I'm puttin' on a brave face to meet you in the same place
And I know, and I know, and I know
Gotta let my mind find another space
Cause I heard these scars never go away
And now I'm runnin' out of ways to numb the pain

So if you're gonna hurt me, why don't you hurt me a little bit more?
Just dig a little deeper, push a little harder than before

Like breathing underwater, what's the law and order?
I don't know, I don't know, I don't know
You're sitting in a corner, hiding 'til it's over
And it shows, and it shows, and it shows
Buildin' up my walls just to tear them down
Tell me that it's love, force me to drown
Buildin' up my walls just to tear them down
Tell me that it's love

Never thought I would lose my grip
Never thought it would hurt so much

Scarred for life

And I'm caught in the crossfire of my own thoughts
The color of my blood is all I see on the rocks

And god knows I'm not dying but I bleed now
And god knows it's the only way to heal now
With all the blood I lost with you
It drowns the love I thought I knew

And I'm thrown in the gunfire of empty bullets
And my blood is all I see
As you steal my soul from me

i'm puttin' on a brave face to meet you in the same place

allt rullar på och jag likaså. är på skolan nu och väntar på att lektionen ska börja så varför inte skriva lite på min döende blogg när jag ändå sitter här och ser fånig ut. imorgon ska jag hålla mitt argumenterande tal, jag blir fan bajsnödig av tanken men ska snacka om psykisk ohälsa så det går nog bra ändå, finns mycket jag kan argumentera om kring det. förutom det så hängde jag med johanna igår vilket var lika kul som alltid, och vi käkade som vanligt och bara var allmänt flummiga. tacka vet jag människor som hon!