Call me a quitter, I don't care
I just can't do this anymore
I've changed, you're not to blame
I'm just not the same person you knew before
So, not to be rude at all
But I'm done trying to live up to your expectations
And down to them
Basically I quit being bound to them
I quit following everyone's opinions of which right for me

I quit being loyal to these negative thoughts that have never been useful
I quit letting the guilt of my past get in my path
And deprive me of a beautiful future

I quit letting people who have proven that they don't really care about me, get to me
I quit hanging out with friends who of most days I couldn't tell if they're friends or enemies draining my energy
I quit letting society's expectations and timetables pressure me, direct my destiny and stress me
I quit forgiving everyone else in the whole world except me

Många jävla eldar som aldrig skulle slockna

Förlåt mig för alla dom förlåt som kom försent, och förlåt för alla dom förlåt som inte kom alls

Det är svårt att acceptera, omöjligt att förtränga
Lätt att känna skuld, läskigt att förändras
Och det är stort att bryta mönster, starkt att börja laga det man en gång tagit sönder

Öppensinnigt att prova nya vägar, mänskligt att fela tusen gånger för att lära
Ödmjukt att säga förlåt, genom att göra det bättre idag än man gjorde igår

To my mom.

Thank you for being there for me. You have been my biggest fan through every single stage of my life and I couldn’t ask for a better friend. Thank you for holding me while I cried and promising me that tomorrow would be a better day. You’ve been my rock through breakups, life decisions, and new chapters. You’ve carried me through when I was convinced I couldn’t go on.

 Thank you for (sneakily) becoming my very best friend, being my first (and daily) phone call, and being my biggest (and most caring) confidant. You answer your phone with the same enthusiasm every time, whether it’s my first or the fifth call of the day. I am eternally grateful. Most importantly, thank you for showing me right from wrong, for encouraging me in my walk of faith, and for teaching me the value of respect not only for others, but for myself as well.

You have always pushed me to be the very best version of myself and to work for the things I want, rather than to expect them. Thank you for making me independent, and telling me to never rely on anyone. Every single day, I become more confident in myself. Thank you for passing down some of your best qualities. Everyone knows where my hard head and stubbornness come from and here’s a hint – it’s not Daddy. You taught me to fight for everything that I believe in and to never back down. Because of you, I am not afraid to stand up for my beliefs. I inherited my convictions and my passion from watching you, and I’m a better person because of it.

Thank you for always believing in me. There’s nothing I want more than to make you proud. Thank you for understanding when I just couldn’t swing that one class, or when that test just didn’t go as well as I hoped. I will forever be your little girl, no amount of growing can change that. Thank you for not giving up on me. Thank you for keeping me grounded. You never hesitate to remind me where I came from and sometimes, I need that reality check. 

Thank you – for absolutely everything. You’re my hero.